Remember the times when a new year was a highly anticipated event, not just because of the celebrations but also the fact that you were about to be a year older and you can finally move up a notch in the age bracket, earn an extra stripe and get oh so much closer to the coveted yuppy age or an age where the adults actually took you seriously or an age where things are suppose to be better as your career, family life etc finally take-off? As I grow older, and I suspect for many out there in my age bracket and above, the significance of a new year is probably less celebratory and exuberant anticipation but more of a sense of mortality, uncertainty of what the year will bring and what it will mean for the future and an overall sense of "yeah, a new year, a year older, getting old hor, what now?"
Will it ever get better Banker Wanker I hear you ask? I don't really know, am still waiting to find out myself, so stay tune.
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Midori : "It's hard to do, this breakup thing. Am trying to move on, but its so darn hard letting go, even though you know there is no future to it. Perhaps I just don't love him enough"
Banker Wanker : "Its better and fairer for both sides in the long run, but yeah, it will hurt like hell now. I have been there, done that, so I know what you are going through. But you know about my thing with the Queen? Well, that is the consequences of not having the guts to break away...learn from me la"
Booty Call :"I am taking a time-out from my boy"
Banker Wanker :"Like any game, time outs got definite time...so what is your time frame?"
Booty Call :"Dunno, haven't figure it out yet"
Banker Wanker :"Don't let it fester, think of a time frame, otherwise, it will be hard to extract yourself...learn from me la"
Banker Wanker realizes that many people are learning from Banker Wanker's life....so great ah my life? :) Lerr...so tragic la, hence why always counseling equally tragic people...come come, sit with Banker Wanker, da Love Guru and tell me all your troubles. I am sure I have something in my trunk of life to sooth your heartaches and tears, if not I am always good for a laugh or a short roll in the hay.
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Overheard in Bankerland
Capon : "I am blown away by the CV of that person you met, we must try to hire her"
Banker Wanker : "Yes, she is good, which means you got to pay top dollar"
Capon: "Well, we will see about that..."
Banker Wanker mentally throws 100 venom laced shirukens towards Capon's crotch area.
Isabella : "Seriously, you need to stop sending so many emails to client"
Puchong Boy : "Noted"
Isabella : "And you don't have to call the client EVERY single day!"
Puchong Boy : "Noted"
Isabella : "And please clear with me all documents before you send them out!"
Puchong Boy : "Noted"
Wash, rinse, spin, repeat next week. Noted
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Value Proposition
With the spate of resignations in Bankerland, I have had to take a step back and ask what is it that Bankerland can offer to its employees. Perhaps, specifically, The General and Capon, what can they offer to their staff in the department. Obviously in these day and age, money is not and cannot be the only solution to long term loyalty and staff retention. And after much thought and brutal soul searching and reality checks, I realised that Bankerland is just going no where. All this rah-rah about regional expansion are just, well rah-rah. I have severe doubts now on the ability of The General and Capon to lead us to the promised land in a timeframe which is reasonable. I suppose at their level, they have much to lose and taking off to another organization is out of their comfort zone. So they got to stick with this and try to make it work. But it is truly a conundrum when their experiences have mainly been confined to the local market. Coupled with their policy of not hiring foreign help but rely on home grown organic talent, we have the perfect recipe for denial and the inability to execute the roadmap. Don't get me wrong, I am cool with home grown organic talent but sometimes, a dose of new blood could be the needed catalyst for a paradigm shift. On this premise, for the younger ones in the department who can recognize that we are not going anywhere here, the only option to avoid redundancy in 10 years time is to move on to a place that can offer a wider scope of work.
Sleep on it and hope for an epiphany.
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If God was an employer and we are employed as denizens on earth (I am keeping all the biblical promises etc out of here and just trying to create a contextual frame), what would be the value proposition for our existence here? Is it to experience sparodic happiness in one's life? Is it to live a path, irregardless of the destination, and say at the end of the day that it was the journey that matters? To enjoy earth and its material objects? To experience love? Is living life as great as its made out to be? Is our existence necessary save for the continuity of the human species? When Bumblebee grows up, what do I tell him when he ask the reason for his existence?
I do not have a definite answer to all of these and perhaps the answer is only realisable towards the end of our lives, which in itself is a true tragedy. Perhaps the trick is to observe the people around us that seem to operate and live with meaning and purpose.Hmmm, where do I find meself some truly happy people, nyek nyek nyek.......
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Overheard in Bankerland:
-- Banker Wanker:"I do not think our value proposition to our staff is strong..we do not have a regional story etc etc"
The General :"We are working on it, albeit at a slow pace"
Banker Wanker :"Staff might be worried about redundancy in 10 years time etc etc"
The General :"Not true, Capon and myself don't really have much of a regional background but we continue to get job offers from foreign banks..*rah rah rah about past glories*"
Banker Wanker :"The future might be different?"
Banker Wanker thinks that The General and Capon might be suffering from tunnel vision and illusion of past grandeur.
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Since the Queen is about to start work again after her maternity leave, we have been planning for Bumblebee's care for the days when we are both working trying to earn the buckeroos to fund his milk runs and diapers. The tricky part really is trying to balance Bumblebee's time with both in-laws and the help they would require to take care of him. The guilt does set in sometimes since it would mean a considerable sacrifice on their part especially to their daily routine and freedom. Don't get me started on the process of trying to get a maid, eventhough if you are willing to pay good money for help. The fear from hearing the horror stories associated with a foreign maid is enough to give me sleepless nights.
Sherlock Holmes the movie starring Robert Downey is cool la, go watch it!
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My last post for the year, so be good and have a Happy New Year. Let's turn the page and hope for the best and if the best is elusive at the end of it, we shall and will continue to soldier on because that is the best we can do. Over and out for 2009.
Sleep on it and hope for an epiphany.
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If God was an employer and we are employed as denizens on earth (I am keeping all the biblical promises etc out of here and just trying to create a contextual frame), what would be the value proposition for our existence here? Is it to experience sparodic happiness in one's life? Is it to live a path, irregardless of the destination, and say at the end of the day that it was the journey that matters? To enjoy earth and its material objects? To experience love? Is living life as great as its made out to be? Is our existence necessary save for the continuity of the human species? When Bumblebee grows up, what do I tell him when he ask the reason for his existence?
I do not have a definite answer to all of these and perhaps the answer is only realisable towards the end of our lives, which in itself is a true tragedy. Perhaps the trick is to observe the people around us that seem to operate and live with meaning and purpose.Hmmm, where do I find meself some truly happy people, nyek nyek nyek.......
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Overheard in Bankerland:
-- Banker Wanker:"I do not think our value proposition to our staff is strong..we do not have a regional story etc etc"
The General :"We are working on it, albeit at a slow pace"
Banker Wanker :"Staff might be worried about redundancy in 10 years time etc etc"
The General :"Not true, Capon and myself don't really have much of a regional background but we continue to get job offers from foreign banks..*rah rah rah about past glories*"
Banker Wanker :"The future might be different?"
Banker Wanker thinks that The General and Capon might be suffering from tunnel vision and illusion of past grandeur.
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Since the Queen is about to start work again after her maternity leave, we have been planning for Bumblebee's care for the days when we are both working trying to earn the buckeroos to fund his milk runs and diapers. The tricky part really is trying to balance Bumblebee's time with both in-laws and the help they would require to take care of him. The guilt does set in sometimes since it would mean a considerable sacrifice on their part especially to their daily routine and freedom. Don't get me started on the process of trying to get a maid, eventhough if you are willing to pay good money for help. The fear from hearing the horror stories associated with a foreign maid is enough to give me sleepless nights.
Sherlock Holmes the movie starring Robert Downey is cool la, go watch it!
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My last post for the year, so be good and have a Happy New Year. Let's turn the page and hope for the best and if the best is elusive at the end of it, we shall and will continue to soldier on because that is the best we can do. Over and out for 2009.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Be Afraid, Be Very Afraid
So, its Christmas Eve and the whole jing bang will be congregating for the annual Christmas Eve dinner. It is a great time of the year...yadah, yadi, yadah...just ain't feeling it this year and I wonder if I will ever feel it again. I suppose that is why, like in the movies, families get exuberantly excited when there is a new face to the gatherings i.e. new boyfriends/girlfriends, fiance, fuck buddies etc. Its a welcomed distraction to the otherwise mundane conversations (and oh so often repeated topics) and the glossing over unspoken family politics. Well, at least I will have Bumblebee to humor me this time round *secretly praying for him to go nuclear poo poo today, the scent will mix well with the curry chicken...yummm*
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Apparently Capon is tired, not sure if that extends to his personal life as well. But heck, I rather be tired with a big fat salary than be tired with peanuts as salary. So, am sorry if I can't really sympathize with his jadedness. All I know is, its affecting the people and morale here. Market share is down too and the other banks are either way ahead or are at level playing field now. We have some structural issues here which I am not sure if Capon and the General sees, but I really don't want to be around when the shit hits the fan. Nasi akan menjadi bubur tak lama lagi. Blurp
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Overheard in Bankerland:
--Snoop Dawg:"Banker Wanker, how la, so many people leaving, 2010 is going to be an interesting year"
Banker Wanker: "Don't worry la. Oh, I can say that coz I am leaving :))))"
Snoop Dawg: "Bugger you"
Banker Wanker: *peace sign gawai style*
--Petals :"Eh, why all your key staff leaving la?"
Capon :"Dunno, I thought their compensation was sufficient"
When Banker Wanker heard this, he wanted to stab hiw own eyeballs and eardrums. Capon very well know and has admitted in the past that compensation for some staff was way below the average. I fear for everyone's future here if the mindset is such..be afraid, be very afraid.
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Merry Christmas and try to be happy yar. Avatar is a kick ass movie, I so want to be a Na'vi now and hump a Na'vi chick.
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Apparently Capon is tired, not sure if that extends to his personal life as well. But heck, I rather be tired with a big fat salary than be tired with peanuts as salary. So, am sorry if I can't really sympathize with his jadedness. All I know is, its affecting the people and morale here. Market share is down too and the other banks are either way ahead or are at level playing field now. We have some structural issues here which I am not sure if Capon and the General sees, but I really don't want to be around when the shit hits the fan. Nasi akan menjadi bubur tak lama lagi. Blurp
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Overheard in Bankerland:
--Snoop Dawg:"Banker Wanker, how la, so many people leaving, 2010 is going to be an interesting year"
Banker Wanker: "Don't worry la. Oh, I can say that coz I am leaving :))))"
Snoop Dawg: "Bugger you"
Banker Wanker: *peace sign gawai style*
--Petals :"Eh, why all your key staff leaving la?"
Capon :"Dunno, I thought their compensation was sufficient"
When Banker Wanker heard this, he wanted to stab hiw own eyeballs and eardrums. Capon very well know and has admitted in the past that compensation for some staff was way below the average. I fear for everyone's future here if the mindset is such..be afraid, be very afraid.
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Merry Christmas and try to be happy yar. Avatar is a kick ass movie, I so want to be a Na'vi now and hump a Na'vi chick.
Monday, December 21, 2009
10 Things.....
Since its the year end, this is my obligatory post on things we should all try do for the new year:
11 Things To Do For The New Year
1) Visit a home (senior citizen, orphanage, etc)
2) Take a vow of silence for 1 day
3) Cook for your loved ones more often
4) Declutter your house, office cubicle and car
5) Tell someone that you love him/her
6) Get a hair cut that is totally different from your usual haircut
7) Find out a local or even foreign family/person who are living below the poverty line and send some cash in an envelope and brighten someone's day
8) Switch off your handphone for a day
9) Write an old fashion letter (pen and paper!) to someone
10) Hug someone you have never hugged before
11) Dance like you have never danced before
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10 Things Banker Wanker SHOULD Try To Do In The New Year To Preserve His Sanity
1) Quit Bankerland and open my beach bar and wear hawaiian shorts all day long
2) Tell that chick at Starbucks that she is real cute and ask if I can have her without cream please (to do after quitting)
3) Make some model houses from boxes lying around office, put them right in the middle of the department and start tearing through them like the monsters in Ultraman at the start of a working day (with the monster sounds and stilted walk)
4) Bring Bumblebee out and show him off to strangers etc, and refer to him as a "she"..."Yeah, she is cute huh..am so proud of her". Watch the confused and conflicted faces.
5) Introduce myself as Datuk Banker Wanker and see if they still call me Datuk the next time we meet
6) Play monastery music at cubicle every morning and chant BLR BLR BLRBLRBLR UP UP DOWN DOWN DOWN (repeat for 30 cycles)
7) Learn how to circular breath and tell the chicks that I can dive for abalone without coming up for air (with suggestive look)
8) Walk around funny talking loudly on the phone and laughing.. "No seriously..haha, its still up my ass, I am so going to win the bet dude, lunch is so on you"
9) Tell the bosses that I quit and throw the letter on the table. Opens the letter right there and show them a letter saying "Too Legit To Quit" and dance the MC Hammer dance out of the office
10) Dance like I have never danced before :)
11 Things To Do For The New Year
1) Visit a home (senior citizen, orphanage, etc)
2) Take a vow of silence for 1 day
3) Cook for your loved ones more often
4) Declutter your house, office cubicle and car
5) Tell someone that you love him/her
6) Get a hair cut that is totally different from your usual haircut
7) Find out a local or even foreign family/person who are living below the poverty line and send some cash in an envelope and brighten someone's day
8) Switch off your handphone for a day
9) Write an old fashion letter (pen and paper!) to someone
10) Hug someone you have never hugged before
11) Dance like you have never danced before
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10 Things Banker Wanker SHOULD Try To Do In The New Year To Preserve His Sanity
1) Quit Bankerland and open my beach bar and wear hawaiian shorts all day long
2) Tell that chick at Starbucks that she is real cute and ask if I can have her without cream please (to do after quitting)
3) Make some model houses from boxes lying around office, put them right in the middle of the department and start tearing through them like the monsters in Ultraman at the start of a working day (with the monster sounds and stilted walk)
4) Bring Bumblebee out and show him off to strangers etc, and refer to him as a "she"..."Yeah, she is cute huh..am so proud of her". Watch the confused and conflicted faces.
5) Introduce myself as Datuk Banker Wanker and see if they still call me Datuk the next time we meet
6) Play monastery music at cubicle every morning and chant BLR BLR BLRBLRBLR UP UP DOWN DOWN DOWN (repeat for 30 cycles)
7) Learn how to circular breath and tell the chicks that I can dive for abalone without coming up for air (with suggestive look)
8) Walk around funny talking loudly on the phone and laughing.. "No seriously..haha, its still up my ass, I am so going to win the bet dude, lunch is so on you"
9) Tell the bosses that I quit and throw the letter on the table. Opens the letter right there and show them a letter saying "Too Legit To Quit" and dance the MC Hammer dance out of the office
10) Dance like I have never danced before :)
Thursday, December 17, 2009
We Have What It Takes
Overheard in Bankerland:
Capon : "I need you on a taskforce"
Banker Wanker : *die* "What about?"
Capon : "Blah blah blah blah..."
Banker Wanker : *puts on neutral-quick-you-are-boring-me look* *mind drifts off to Jessica Biel's pecs and wonder if she can crack pistachios with her ass*
Banker Wanker thinks that the word taskforce is so apt...its a group of underpaid mid level managers (with senior leadership supervision kononnya) assembled to carry out a task that is forced unto them.
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Am currently listening to Sarah Maclachlan's greatest hits album. Her music speaks to my soul. I like.
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Overheard in Bankerland,later on the same day:
--Sidekick : "Banker Wanker, we have what it takes..."
Banker Wanker : "To do what?"
Sidekick :"We have what it takes...."
Banker Wanker : "Ok..."
Banker Wanker tries to go into zen mode to decipher this mind boggling piece of zen-nery from Sidekick.
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We have what it takes to achieve many things in life and to gain many things in life. But sometimes, we either do not recognize it or are to afraid to take the first step on the path towards rainbow skies and hot mince pies. Instead we putter along ambivalently, never ever fulfilling ones potential, feeling jaded and not knowing why the years are passing so quickly and uneventfully. By the time you know it, 40 is just around the corner and all you have to show for is 2 decades of mediocrity, 2 dozen of missed opportunities, 2 mortgages with no end of repayment in sight, 2 aging labradors that looks as jaded as you and 2 pages of things to do before you are 40..all unchecked. Perhaps its the order of the universe, natural selection so to speak. The ones that can differentiate themselves from the pack will reap the fruits of their labour while the rest continue their existence so that there is representation in the 95% quartile of the bell curve, the median, normal, average....oh, how I hate these words and I suspect competitive, ambitious, high achieving souls like Sidekick would balk and would rather have an extra nipple than be called average. Personally, the extra nipple might be a turn on :), but hell don't ever be average. I refuse to....that's a start. Let's go...
Capon : "I need you on a taskforce"
Banker Wanker : *die* "What about?"
Capon : "Blah blah blah blah..."
Banker Wanker : *puts on neutral-quick-you-are-boring-me look* *mind drifts off to Jessica Biel's pecs and wonder if she can crack pistachios with her ass*
Banker Wanker thinks that the word taskforce is so apt...its a group of underpaid mid level managers (with senior leadership supervision kononnya) assembled to carry out a task that is forced unto them.
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Am currently listening to Sarah Maclachlan's greatest hits album. Her music speaks to my soul. I like.
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Overheard in Bankerland,later on the same day:
--Sidekick : "Banker Wanker, we have what it takes..."
Banker Wanker : "To do what?"
Sidekick :"We have what it takes...."
Banker Wanker : "Ok..."
Banker Wanker tries to go into zen mode to decipher this mind boggling piece of zen-nery from Sidekick.
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We have what it takes to achieve many things in life and to gain many things in life. But sometimes, we either do not recognize it or are to afraid to take the first step on the path towards rainbow skies and hot mince pies. Instead we putter along ambivalently, never ever fulfilling ones potential, feeling jaded and not knowing why the years are passing so quickly and uneventfully. By the time you know it, 40 is just around the corner and all you have to show for is 2 decades of mediocrity, 2 dozen of missed opportunities, 2 mortgages with no end of repayment in sight, 2 aging labradors that looks as jaded as you and 2 pages of things to do before you are 40..all unchecked. Perhaps its the order of the universe, natural selection so to speak. The ones that can differentiate themselves from the pack will reap the fruits of their labour while the rest continue their existence so that there is representation in the 95% quartile of the bell curve, the median, normal, average....oh, how I hate these words and I suspect competitive, ambitious, high achieving souls like Sidekick would balk and would rather have an extra nipple than be called average. Personally, the extra nipple might be a turn on :), but hell don't ever be average. I refuse to....that's a start. Let's go...
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The Calm Before The Storm
I really love this post from one of my favourite blogs, Marc and Angel.
I would really like to think that what I am going through now is part of a journey that is worth it at the end of the day.
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Overheard in Bankerland:
-- Capon :"Ok, what is CFO Interest Cover, the CFO?"
Banker Wanker : "Cashflow from operations"
Capon :"Why is my CFO negative?"
Banker Wanker :"Err....revenue negative? High receivables?" *trying to mask incredulous look*
Capon : "Yes, that is right, got high receivables" *walks away*
Banker Wanker thinks that if the question is for real, Capon should be shot with a pump gun up the ass, then screwed from behind by a 3 legged elephant. If the question is meant to create some form of conversation, it is as lame as his teeny weeny appendage down south.
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I think that some new analyst in Bankerland needs to be taught a thing or two about common courtesy. Rewind: I had the opportunity to interview one of the analyst and I gave a positive recommendation, which resulted in her employment in Bankerland. Forward : Its been 3 months, and she has not even said hi or greeted me at the lifts etc. Err, lack of common courtesy or maybe I look so different then that she cannot recognise me? Tragic.
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The last 3 months have truly been fluid, with so many developments and changes at home and in Bankerland. I have so much to say, but my state of emotional suspension and flux means I can't really focus and put down in writing some of my thoughts and feelings I have inside. Perhaps its a sub-conscious self-defense mechanism to try to shield my already jaded soul from the realities of my surroundings. Or perhaps I am increasingly receding into my shell, to find comfort and solace in my own silence, with the hope that the deafening silence will eventually mute the torrential turmoil that is blowing inside. Or perhaps, its the calm before the storm and if so, which part of me will survive the storm eventually? Something got to give, but I fear I have little to give anymore...
I would really like to think that what I am going through now is part of a journey that is worth it at the end of the day.
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Overheard in Bankerland:
-- Capon :"Ok, what is CFO Interest Cover, the CFO?"
Banker Wanker : "Cashflow from operations"
Capon :"Why is my CFO negative?"
Banker Wanker :"Err....revenue negative? High receivables?" *trying to mask incredulous look*
Capon : "Yes, that is right, got high receivables" *walks away*
Banker Wanker thinks that if the question is for real, Capon should be shot with a pump gun up the ass, then screwed from behind by a 3 legged elephant. If the question is meant to create some form of conversation, it is as lame as his teeny weeny appendage down south.
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I think that some new analyst in Bankerland needs to be taught a thing or two about common courtesy. Rewind: I had the opportunity to interview one of the analyst and I gave a positive recommendation, which resulted in her employment in Bankerland. Forward : Its been 3 months, and she has not even said hi or greeted me at the lifts etc. Err, lack of common courtesy or maybe I look so different then that she cannot recognise me? Tragic.
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The last 3 months have truly been fluid, with so many developments and changes at home and in Bankerland. I have so much to say, but my state of emotional suspension and flux means I can't really focus and put down in writing some of my thoughts and feelings I have inside. Perhaps its a sub-conscious self-defense mechanism to try to shield my already jaded soul from the realities of my surroundings. Or perhaps I am increasingly receding into my shell, to find comfort and solace in my own silence, with the hope that the deafening silence will eventually mute the torrential turmoil that is blowing inside. Or perhaps, its the calm before the storm and if so, which part of me will survive the storm eventually? Something got to give, but I fear I have little to give anymore...
Friday, December 11, 2009
Serendipity
Chance...
Life is full of chances, most of them are there for the taking only once and if you are truly lucky, second chances presents itself. Sometimes, its right infront of your face but you do not recognise it until much later and by then the sand of time would have shifted and the path you are on would mean you can never ever turn back. Life is full of regrets, so take more chances, so that you would have less of the former. At the least, if things don't work out, at least you have tried to walk the path, rather than just knowing the path.
Fate, Destiny...
If you truly believe in fate or destiny, fate must be the single most ironical aspect of life cause at the end of the day, irregardless of how hard you try to fight the grain, everything is fated. But some may ask that if everything is fated, then what is the point of trying to live? Might as well just leave it to fate and destiny? But fate sometimes serves a bigger purpose, where your fate or destiny is pre-ordained so that you can live. And the reality is, your fate, your destiny sometimes forms a wider pattern in God's overall plan and that you are meant to suffer, to not live for someone else's happiness or purpose.
I believe the road that you are suppose to walk on has huge spaces on the left and right that will allow you to stray far enough to make you feel like you are living but close enough such that you follow the path to what is fated, pre-ordained for you. The good thing about fate though is that once in a while, it throws you a curve ball that is totally unexpected and seemingly daunting at times, but always interesting and sometimes heart wrenching. Ain't these part of the kaleidoscope of what we call living?
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-- Banker Wanker :"I can't"
Booty Call :"Not free?"
Banker Wanker : "Am not in a good place now"
Booty Call :"Ok, will catch up soon?"
Banker Wanker "Definitely"
Banker Wanker smacks big forehead. Talk about chances.
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In Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time series, the term ta'veren is used and it describes "A person around whom the Wheel of Time weaves all surrounding life-threads, perhaps ALL life-threads, to form a Web of Destiny." Basically a person who is the centre to all and will affect everyone's life and path. I somehow feel that in my time in Bankerland and the recent resignation and those I know that are coming, I have met a Ta'veren and things would be different from here on with the person's departure.
Thanks for the memories Soulmate.
Life is full of chances, most of them are there for the taking only once and if you are truly lucky, second chances presents itself. Sometimes, its right infront of your face but you do not recognise it until much later and by then the sand of time would have shifted and the path you are on would mean you can never ever turn back. Life is full of regrets, so take more chances, so that you would have less of the former. At the least, if things don't work out, at least you have tried to walk the path, rather than just knowing the path.
Fate, Destiny...
If you truly believe in fate or destiny, fate must be the single most ironical aspect of life cause at the end of the day, irregardless of how hard you try to fight the grain, everything is fated. But some may ask that if everything is fated, then what is the point of trying to live? Might as well just leave it to fate and destiny? But fate sometimes serves a bigger purpose, where your fate or destiny is pre-ordained so that you can live. And the reality is, your fate, your destiny sometimes forms a wider pattern in God's overall plan and that you are meant to suffer, to not live for someone else's happiness or purpose.
I believe the road that you are suppose to walk on has huge spaces on the left and right that will allow you to stray far enough to make you feel like you are living but close enough such that you follow the path to what is fated, pre-ordained for you. The good thing about fate though is that once in a while, it throws you a curve ball that is totally unexpected and seemingly daunting at times, but always interesting and sometimes heart wrenching. Ain't these part of the kaleidoscope of what we call living?
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-- Banker Wanker :"I can't"
Booty Call :"Not free?"
Banker Wanker : "Am not in a good place now"
Booty Call :"Ok, will catch up soon?"
Banker Wanker "Definitely"
Banker Wanker smacks big forehead. Talk about chances.
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In Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time series, the term ta'veren is used and it describes "A person around whom the Wheel of Time weaves all surrounding life-threads, perhaps ALL life-threads, to form a Web of Destiny." Basically a person who is the centre to all and will affect everyone's life and path. I somehow feel that in my time in Bankerland and the recent resignation and those I know that are coming, I have met a Ta'veren and things would be different from here on with the person's departure.
Thanks for the memories Soulmate.
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